Emma Leigh

[Emma Leigh]

Looking into symptoms/signs,  its possible. The voices I tend to hear  are mostly consciously made up,  because its very easy to agree with myself and I instinctively disagree with these “people” That I don’t respect or trust

[Emma Leigh]

So,all these helped to an extent, but the best way ive found to cope with these feeling so far is to pretend that the intrusive thoughts (“What if there’s a person behind that car? You dont know.” “Thats totally a human shadow.You obviously arent alone.”) are being said by a really annoying conspiracy theorist Ive named Bill, the one who’s always wrong. If its about me (not being good enough, being awkward, being dumb) then its the stuffy super religious neighbor who always picks on young girls for being “improper.” Her name is Mrs Elizabeth. For some reason it makes these things <i>wayyy</i> easier to dismiss.

 

[Emma Leigh]

Just looked back and remembered I said I would tell my Mom I’m an atheist by Christmas…  That has not happened.

[Emma Leigh]

@jakelafort yup.  My mom wanted Emma and my dad wanted Emily so now I’m Emma Leigh.  People call me both

[Emma Leigh]

I love when I post something and it becomes something like this. Long and interesting and informative.

[Emma Leigh]

The reason Chrsitianity has become so succesful is because all you have to do is not mess up, and if you do, just pray and you will be fine. It gives people the illusion of freedom, and that is needed for progress.

[Emma Leigh]

So, my sister told my mom she is an atheist (or our little brothers overheard her and her best friend and told mom), and Mom literally said to her,”I want you to do your homework before you ever use that word (atheist) to describe yourself again.” And,”I can’t believe you are risking living in heaven with all of the rest of us forever because of something you think could be true.” Which sounds a lot like Pascal wager to me. The point is, my Mom is an irrational believer, and for some reason I think she would react on both extremes. Good news though, I found out how to get out of church. I can just go with my baby sister and play with two year olds for the whole service! So, I’m doing alright at home besides being forced into Christian schoolwork. Thank you all for the support

[Emma Leigh]

I use privatebrowser when I geton here, bc I know how my mom would react. And I do use a fake name, though the picture is me it’s not really on an area of the internet she sees much. Her extent of social media is Facebook and Instagram, but her web surfing is pretty low, so im not worried about that. Thanks so much for all the advice guys. I have decided that I will tell her, because she isn’t the type of person to kick me out so I’m not too worried about that. If she does kick me out, I have a fall back plan. But anyway, I’m going to tell her by Christmas (No backing out) and cross my fingers. Most likely, she will just make me go to church more, bc there is not really much for her to justify pulling me out of due to religion (or lack thereof). But I feel like i would be stressing myself out and I dont need that right now. I think I always knew I would tell,I just need the right setting.

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[Emma Leigh]

I just thought about it really. I mean, how does that even make sense? And it didn’t make any sense at all, because all my life I’ve seen horrible stuff happen to good people with no good stuff to make up for it, and really, where exactly is this bearded man?

[Emma Leigh]

Stupidest thing for me… In the middle of science class in seventh grade, “My hairbrush is indestructable!”, throws hairbrush on floor very hard. RIP, hairbrush

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